the heart is a lonely holiday

oh how i love christmases on my own!

christmas wasnt the same and i pissed. however i had fun.

it felt like any old day at the chelaks though. even thought it was fun, i just dont know. but then again im friggin moody as hell. its a morning on a saturday and im siting in bed. ooooo. last night is saw the curious case of benjamin button with kayla, kimmy, and kristal and it was soooooo goood. however, it was three hours long!! whew! thn we went back to kimmys and hung out for a while. haha good times. 

i miss sasha fierce!

gah im so bored. shoot me.

our town... friggin sucks

so i go to this lame ass party and it was lame so a few of us decided to leave for our own happy hour and then those plans got shot so a called everyone trying to find something to do. and without success, i drove my tush home. 

it doesnt feel like christmas and im ticked! normally i am all about me some christmas but two days from now itll be almost over and thats hella depressing. however it must feel weird cause this is the first christmas where i have actually purchased things for other people. i guess this giving this is taking away from all the excitement of receiving, as selfish as that sounds. 

i have had an eventful break so far though, which is nice. im not just sitting on my butt waiting for christmas to roll around. so i guess thats why it stuck up on me. 

while i am trying to have my great amazing break there is a thought that is always nipping at my brain. that harrison will leave in january. and while he wants to go i will just be selfish and say that i dont want him to. but he knows that. i think everyone knows that. im going to be stuck here alone with none of my best friends and it sucks. gahhhhhh.

but anyway. i guess im done. 

pickens sucks.

tonight sucked.

halleler in the church hallelur.

a portrait of the con artist as a young man

sometimes people dont know what they want. and sometimes people dont know who they are.

i am elated that the holiday season is among us. christmas time is the most wonderful tim of the year. or at least thats what the song said.

i am so unsure of my place right now

in the hearts and minds of many people. i am very confused. i dont know what people expect or want from me. maybe im just tired. i have been out of it these past few weeks; worrying about english, and trying to go to work and the theater every day. even though i just got home from math tonight i feel so relieved to not have to be at the playhouse. 

he said he mimght come friday, but her didnt. i didnt really expect him to either. but i imagined him standing there after it was over with a single rose waiting for me. a hug.

but some things are still left to the imagination. i do not know what will come of our untimely "frelationship". im tired of trying to think about it. 

the play is going well though. the kids are all the time driving us crazy but honestly, i wouldnt have it any other way. it makes for good conversation, bashing the small children. perhaps i will post a picture or several on my facebook tonight. 

miss me,

xoxo

something wonderful this way comes

soooooo i am so happy right now. really. theres this guy and no matter what i do or say he makes me feel amazing! gahhhh! what have i done to deserve a guy this great? saturday night cannot come soon enough.

so we had a core four craft date last night and the letters came out surprisingly well. i got merediths and she got mine! wooohooo. heres a photo. 

im just really really happy right now. like really. 

ahhhhhh

so tomorrow is black friday and i have to wake up at three!!! to go shopping! its ridiculous. i wouldnt have thought that it could get any worse than last year (starting shopping at midnight) but i think it has. because last year i wanted to go, and this year i have no desire whatsoever! so im gonna be walking around all morning dreadful because i wont be able to be texting my sweetie cause idk when hes getting up, and ughhhh. kill me now!!

but dont.

i dont ever want to wake up.

because im obviously dreaming.

xoxo mbl

the seven also rises

7 things 

7 things i can do:
1. sing
2. dance
3. act
4. talk your ears off
5. cut a hoe
6. text really fast
7. take a good picture

7 things i cant do:
1. drive well
2. read fast
3. be without my phone
4. win at mancala
5. ugly people
6. live without movies
7. save money

7 things i love about the core 4:
1. they understand every facet that is austin
2. we are inseparable
3. time and distance is nothing to our friendship
4. they let me play with their hair
5. our joint home: the chelaks
6. craft time
7. love

7 places i would like to see myself:
1. new york
2. paris
3. london
4. milan
5. hollywood
6. charleston
7. brazil

7 thing i say more than the rest:
1. bitch
2. holla!
3. okkk
4. wtf
5. rude
6. girl, i dont even know.
7. ay bay bay

the sound and the volley

it has been a while since my last post.

i have been extremely busy here recently. i have rehearsal every dang day. i still have school and work. plus im playing in our schools stud muffin volleyball game. SENIORS BABY! oh nine is the only way to go. i have practice in about twenty minutes =D. i skipped work to go so it better be gooooood. 

beckys wedding is tomorrow. im not gonna tell her im coming cause i havent talked to her in a while and i want it to be a surprise when she sees me. that is, if it doesnt rain. cause its supposed to be an outside wedding.

im trying to take my online class more serious in hopes that i dont fail it. 

but other than that nothing is new. the play practices are getting much more boring and i feel like sherri is on her last limb. but whatever!!!

you know you love me

xoxo

to kill a lock-in bird

and so october ends.

last night was the much anticipated lock-in at the theater and in my opinion, it went off without a hitch. no one's friends came but that don't matta! the middle schoolers ran around in the theater while i simply stomped around in a pair of heels. oh yeahhh. but lexi's house was fun and then we dance partied and watched movies. i feel that it was a success.

so this morning i got an itch to see HSM3 again so i picked up cassidy and we went to see it. then i went to wal-mart where i picked up a cheap halloween costume for tonight, which is ben's party. it should be pretty poppin. apparently the entire senior class is coming so that should be interesting. 

mine and marks relationship is on the rocks. i feel that the romance is dwindling!! please give me comments on what you think i should do!!!