it's my party and i'll cry if i want to...

in 20 short minutes will mark the 18th year of my existence on earth.

its scary, really. i can remember being in middle school and thinking that being a senior was so far away. and even further from that was turning eighteen. being a legal adult. and now that the day is here i honestly do feel different. this new feeling is fear. if this is coming this fast then next thing i know i'll be turning 30, and then 40, and then soon enough i'll be dead. 

i try not to think about harrison these days. the more i think about what he's doing out there, the more i wish he was out here. 

merediths coming home tomorrow!! she is coming with me to the snowflake semiformal at my school. we are going to have the poppinest time evaa!

i have work today. work on my birthday? yeah, i need the money. 

and then i have rehearsal, which should be fun.

happy birthday to me.

are you there gin? it's me austin...

and i miss you dearly.

i sent the book of core four to meredith today. and to be honest with you, i really liked keeping up a journal. though my life sometimes got boring, its the little stuff that you'll read later in life and think is hilarious! but at least now i can go back to blogging!!!

now that the coltasac is gone i have no idea what the hell im going to do. i need a new car quick. i have to much stuff to do to be left to my own defenses. 

i got my nalgene bottle in the mail today! 

when i got home from work i skyped with kaylaaaaa! god i miss her. and emma called me at work today!!!! i miss her too. and i miss meredtih! and i guess i miss harrison.... jkjk.

this blog is so dumb. part of my wants to start over, but ughhhhh. progress for the sake of progress is still progress.

yessssssssss.

i need to be drunk.