soph

so these are my new roommates. i love my house and i'm loving being back in the city. i cant wait to start getting visitors from home.... i mean its inevitable

my new layout

...suits me. yeah?

urggle furgle!

it's summer.

i'm unemployed.

i'm poor.

i'm ready to go back to charleston.

here's a list of things i want to do this summer:

• six flags
• charleston road trip
• ft lauderdale road trip
• hang out with my friends... A LOT!

now at this point, in order to do all these things, i need a fricken job!!

cross your fingers for me.

some people...

...will never be the people you want them to be.

but that's not friendship.

that's a lie.

but it's good to know that there are a few people out there who will always be who they are, and always do what they promise, and will always let me be me.

it's 7:22 a.m.

i've stayed awake all night writing an english paper about how facebook has changed the way we are politically persuaded. i think i am ready for summer, i think.

thoughts

i'm sitting in geology and i felt like posting.

i got the book on monday..... finally.

words can't express how fed up i was with the whole situation.

matt's leaving today to go home for spring break... imma miss him

but im going to san francisco on friday mutha fuckas!!!

im so excited.

oh and i met a guy. but if you want to know more about that then you could pick up a phone.

i miss all of you guys.

it's gonna be a good year.

calendar of events:

last weekend-

my sis, her friend brittany, and my bff kelly p. came down for the weekend. it was epic. we got drunk and went to the club.. ahh. good times

this weekend jan 29th-31st-

i am coming home to pickens ya'll! i'll be seeing wicked friday night (which i am so pumped for) and i'll be doing whatever the rest of the time... probs stoppin by the chelaks at some point.

Feb 5th-7th-

i will be in columbia with my best friend MEREDITH! spending the whole weekend with her and her roomies. one of the nights i will be seeing her lovely show and watch her be the sluttiest whore ever! (jolyn, emma, becky you guys should arrange to come this weekend as well)

Feb 11th-

RENT at charleston musica hall for susan's birthday!

Feb 19th-21st-

Kelly P. Kimmy, and Kyrsten will be truckin on down to chucktown to stay with yours truly! (this event may still be up for debate.)

March 6th-19th-

SPRING BREAK in SAN FRANCISCO!!! Taylor (the suitemate) his uncle lives out there and he'll be staying with his life partner that week and he is letting us have the key to his apartment for the whole damn week! it is going to be the craziest thing ever!

That's just a lil bit of what i'm up to these days.

one word: college

welp! im two weeks in. hollaa! college is fun. move-in was pretty hectic and hot as fire, but at least it wasnt raining. i really like my roomate and my suitemates. up to this point we all get along really well. sometimes i have to tell a bitch when theyre acting a fool but that aint nothin but a thang you know. i feel like there should be a lot more parties, but there arent really. i mean there are the frat parties but those are whatever. last night was the first night i really partied since ive been here and lemme tell ya! woooo. and it was a homo party so i naturally felt right at home. i ended up staying the night with this guy robert and we are going to hang out tonight too, so well see where that goes. lol. 

i got my hair cut today, in a slon, and i got a mimosa. hahaha. im too legit to quit. 

i have to stop spending money. its not a good situation. yikes! 

but thats all for now. i miss my friends really bad. like really bad.

charelston

i have not blogged in many moons.

so i just went to orientation and can i just say, that i'm ready. i'm ready to friggin go to charleston. i love it up here, and i know i'll miss all my friends but i want to leave.

all of my friends have had their time to go, and now it's my turn.

don't be jealous when my freshman year dominates.

whoop whoop

shush girl, shut your lips

i was sick all last week. it was not glamorous. at all. on wednesday i went to legally blonde with hannah and ended up passing out in the hallway during the second act. on thursday i had the mystery dinner and it all went ok but i was not the best chipper lad lemme tell ya. then i had the play friday saturday and sunday. but i felt better on sunday so katherine and i went to legally blonde! lol. im glad i went back cause it was soooo good. 

and now this week i just have congestion and head pains. also my sleep schedule has been thrown off. i keep waking up at like 7:30 and its pissing me off!!!! but i really think it gets better every day. i have to finish off the play this weekend and then its spring break!! charleston!!! ohhhh yessss. i am soooo excited. 

gossipgirl came on for two more weeks but not its effing taking two more weeks off!! its really killing me. but its alright because the hills starts back monday!!!!

ahhh my life is so intriguing, yes?

simplicity

i miss gossipgirl.

i miss it bad.

woa is me

so i dont know why people think its so easy to walk in and then walk out.

ughhhh. im so frustrated. and of course its dealing with a boy. i haven really talked to many guys at all after what happened with bret over christmas. that was a real blow. and now i try again and its so easy for him to just say "its ok that i hang out with other guys that i like" and thats not really ok with me. im so lost now. 

i guess i was fine being single. i mean, i didnt have to worry about pleasing someone else.

life is going well in every aspect other than that. schools fine. works good. theaters the same. and im just rolling through.

im excited for mere and emma to come home. i like that they hang out with me. unlike some of my friends. bahhhh. im so down. 

waste of post.

the prince of egypt.

i just got home from rehearsal, and i hit a deer. A DEER!

it tore up the front of my car. i cant even open the driver side door. why me?? why?? i think doing grease has become my curse or something. damn you F.I.R.E.

and then it dawned on me. i am experiencing the seven plagues on egypt, only in reverse order and they are being placed on me through my vehicles:

killing of the firstborn = the death of my first car

plague of darkness = the hood of the coltasac flying up on me, making me unable to see.

and now the famine, where the animals die = my car killing the animal and taking the damn blow for it.

WHATS NEXT!?! a plague of locust nest in the backseat OR perhaps my oil will be turned to blood. whatever happens, im screwed. i just have to get through this week. and while im so fricken busy i have to find time to take the car to some guy so he can assess the damage and order new parts as well as shape up the metal so i can open the damn door. shit shit shit!

ahhhh. 

and so begins the life and times of diego...

this weekend was very much fun.

friday i got a little crazy with some friends.

saturday meredith came with me to the semiformal.

and sunday i had a birthday lunch and saw foxfire.

the dance with mere was so much fun. we went to dozo before and got some poppin hibachi. we had a group of 24. i also brought cupcakes my mom made for everyone, and they were fricken delicious. kimmy and keli absolutely adore meredith. which really does mean a lot to me, you know, that my friends can all like each other and perhaps understand why im friends with the other ones... if that makes sense.

foxfire was surprisingly decent. i think i was expecting some over the top gaudy show that jimmy normally puts on. although it did have its fair share of fricken sound effects that were annoying as crap. but i sat in front of the sound box where denver and alexis were sitting. they sang quite off tune with ALL of the songs and denver kept throwing change at me but it was aiight. haha. jolyn was busy afterward so i just went home. i miss jolyn though. and all of the chelaks. even though harrisons not there i still feel that they are like a separate family. ill probably go over there sometime this week.

today i did not have school. so i left the house around 1:00 and ventured off the arbys for lunch with some friends. on the way there the hood of the coltasac flew up onto the windshield, cracking it allllllll up. i then, thankfully, made my way off of the road and tried to close the hood. it would not because it was all bent up from flying over the windshield. so i got out my ID bdage and used the landyard to tie it shut, called my grandpa, and drove it to his house, where he then drove me to arbys. i talked it over with kimmy and the group and then kimmy drove me to work. 

for the senior superlatives, most of you know that i wanted best dressed. it is what i have been trying to dress up for school all year for. turns out dustin cox got it. and not only did he get what I wanted!! but he also got most school spirit. now, at pickens you can only get one superlative. so dustin had to choose. and this whole year we all thought he wanted most school spirit, but no. he chose BEST FUCKING DRESSED! and i was pissed. so since he  chose best dressed, i was the runner up for most school spirit (i know, wtf) but i also got most likely to be famous!!! and i legitimately won most likely to be famous! so of course thats what im going to pick. and im not upset about getting it either. im really glad. but the thing is that i didnt know that there was going to be a most likely to be famous. this is the first year they did it. so maybe if i had known that i wouldnt have tried soooo hard all year to try and win best dressed. i mean i feel like all of the trouble was wasted on nothing. ughhhhh. but its whatever... I GOT A SUPERLATIVE!! woooohooo. see, i try to tell everyone that being gay isn't a damper on how you do in school or life. you have to just make the best of yourself and others will respect you for that... ahhhh....

so while i was at work i text my mother and was like "get me a cor. i dont care what it is or how expensive. just do it." and she called and said that her friends patricia's daughter laci had an explorer she wanted to get rid of for $700!! so my parents picked me up from work and we went over there and drove it and it is actually pretty nice. its a '95 eddie bauer edition explorer. and my friends kelli has one almost identical, but hers is newer and not eddie bauer. but her and kimmy named hers dora the explorer, so kimmy said i shoud name mine diego!!! is that not the cutest thing. dora and diego. and no i, like all of my friends, have an SUV. i really like it though.

so now i just watched gossip girl (sooooo goooodd) and im gonna 

catch some zz's.

ahhhhhhh. long post. (dont expect a lot of these.)

i love you guys.

it's my party and i'll cry if i want to...

in 20 short minutes will mark the 18th year of my existence on earth.

its scary, really. i can remember being in middle school and thinking that being a senior was so far away. and even further from that was turning eighteen. being a legal adult. and now that the day is here i honestly do feel different. this new feeling is fear. if this is coming this fast then next thing i know i'll be turning 30, and then 40, and then soon enough i'll be dead. 

i try not to think about harrison these days. the more i think about what he's doing out there, the more i wish he was out here. 

merediths coming home tomorrow!! she is coming with me to the snowflake semiformal at my school. we are going to have the poppinest time evaa!

i have work today. work on my birthday? yeah, i need the money. 

and then i have rehearsal, which should be fun.

happy birthday to me.

are you there gin? it's me austin...

and i miss you dearly.

i sent the book of core four to meredith today. and to be honest with you, i really liked keeping up a journal. though my life sometimes got boring, its the little stuff that you'll read later in life and think is hilarious! but at least now i can go back to blogging!!!

now that the coltasac is gone i have no idea what the hell im going to do. i need a new car quick. i have to much stuff to do to be left to my own defenses. 

i got my nalgene bottle in the mail today! 

when i got home from work i skyped with kaylaaaaa! god i miss her. and emma called me at work today!!!! i miss her too. and i miss meredtih! and i guess i miss harrison.... jkjk.

this blog is so dumb. part of my wants to start over, but ughhhhh. progress for the sake of progress is still progress.

yessssssssss.

i need to be drunk.

the heart is a lonely holiday

oh how i love christmases on my own!

christmas wasnt the same and i pissed. however i had fun.

it felt like any old day at the chelaks though. even thought it was fun, i just dont know. but then again im friggin moody as hell. its a morning on a saturday and im siting in bed. ooooo. last night is saw the curious case of benjamin button with kayla, kimmy, and kristal and it was soooooo goood. however, it was three hours long!! whew! thn we went back to kimmys and hung out for a while. haha good times. 

i miss sasha fierce!

gah im so bored. shoot me.

our town... friggin sucks

so i go to this lame ass party and it was lame so a few of us decided to leave for our own happy hour and then those plans got shot so a called everyone trying to find something to do. and without success, i drove my tush home. 

it doesnt feel like christmas and im ticked! normally i am all about me some christmas but two days from now itll be almost over and thats hella depressing. however it must feel weird cause this is the first christmas where i have actually purchased things for other people. i guess this giving this is taking away from all the excitement of receiving, as selfish as that sounds. 

i have had an eventful break so far though, which is nice. im not just sitting on my butt waiting for christmas to roll around. so i guess thats why it stuck up on me. 

while i am trying to have my great amazing break there is a thought that is always nipping at my brain. that harrison will leave in january. and while he wants to go i will just be selfish and say that i dont want him to. but he knows that. i think everyone knows that. im going to be stuck here alone with none of my best friends and it sucks. gahhhhhh.

but anyway. i guess im done. 

pickens sucks.

tonight sucked.

halleler in the church hallelur.

a portrait of the con artist as a young man

sometimes people dont know what they want. and sometimes people dont know who they are.

i am elated that the holiday season is among us. christmas time is the most wonderful tim of the year. or at least thats what the song said.

i am so unsure of my place right now

in the hearts and minds of many people. i am very confused. i dont know what people expect or want from me. maybe im just tired. i have been out of it these past few weeks; worrying about english, and trying to go to work and the theater every day. even though i just got home from math tonight i feel so relieved to not have to be at the playhouse. 

he said he mimght come friday, but her didnt. i didnt really expect him to either. but i imagined him standing there after it was over with a single rose waiting for me. a hug.

but some things are still left to the imagination. i do not know what will come of our untimely "frelationship". im tired of trying to think about it. 

the play is going well though. the kids are all the time driving us crazy but honestly, i wouldnt have it any other way. it makes for good conversation, bashing the small children. perhaps i will post a picture or several on my facebook tonight. 

miss me,

xoxo

something wonderful this way comes

soooooo i am so happy right now. really. theres this guy and no matter what i do or say he makes me feel amazing! gahhhh! what have i done to deserve a guy this great? saturday night cannot come soon enough.

so we had a core four craft date last night and the letters came out surprisingly well. i got merediths and she got mine! wooohooo. heres a photo. 

im just really really happy right now. like really. 

ahhhhhh

so tomorrow is black friday and i have to wake up at three!!! to go shopping! its ridiculous. i wouldnt have thought that it could get any worse than last year (starting shopping at midnight) but i think it has. because last year i wanted to go, and this year i have no desire whatsoever! so im gonna be walking around all morning dreadful because i wont be able to be texting my sweetie cause idk when hes getting up, and ughhhh. kill me now!!

but dont.

i dont ever want to wake up.

because im obviously dreaming.

xoxo mbl

the seven also rises

7 things 

7 things i can do:
1. sing
2. dance
3. act
4. talk your ears off
5. cut a hoe
6. text really fast
7. take a good picture

7 things i cant do:
1. drive well
2. read fast
3. be without my phone
4. win at mancala
5. ugly people
6. live without movies
7. save money

7 things i love about the core 4:
1. they understand every facet that is austin
2. we are inseparable
3. time and distance is nothing to our friendship
4. they let me play with their hair
5. our joint home: the chelaks
6. craft time
7. love

7 places i would like to see myself:
1. new york
2. paris
3. london
4. milan
5. hollywood
6. charleston
7. brazil

7 thing i say more than the rest:
1. bitch
2. holla!
3. okkk
4. wtf
5. rude
6. girl, i dont even know.
7. ay bay bay